Hi folks, today my column was supposed to be published as usual. But it's not, not because it was spiked (like the last one) but because I am getting rather tired of trying to say things in a way that gets it published. My editors are not to blame, they try their best but life gets difficult for them if they let some of what I say through. But I don't want to sound happy when I'm not, satisfied with everything when I'm not, or to talk about other irrelevant things when there are so many elephants in the room. I don't want to be pessimistic and I would like to give everyone hope but it's not easy these days.
So I think I will take a peak for a while. As a columnist, I have been very disciplined with several years in a row where I never missed a deadline, no matter where I am. My editor tells me that I am always the earliest to submit, even when I think I'm just sliding into deadline home. So I reckon I deserve a sabbatical.
It doesn't mean I will stop writing altogether. Writing after all is the way I express myself. But I would like to write more authentically, without too many restraints and constraints. So I may just use FB more, rather than return to my blog. I just find blogging takes up too much time with having to do links, photos etc.
So for those who miss my column, sorry about that. For those who didn't notice, that's OK. I will miss my column in a way because after writing it for more than 25 (yes!) years, it has become very much part of my life, a very disciplined part of it. Nothing hones one's craft quite like having to do it regularly over and over again. And it keeps me aware and constantly having to learn about what's going on. It's been a gift and a privilege, it really has.
But I want to be able to sit and reflect, to really have the time to form my thoughts more clearly. There is so much that is going on, some good, much bad, but I feel that I am so busy that I never have time to just sit and think. I'd like to be more like Winnie the Pooh: 'sometimes I sits and thinks. And sometimes I just sits.'
So I'm not going to disappear completely. Nobody needs to cheer that I'm going to shut up. Because I'm not. I just want to do things a little differently.